blondeonastick

how did we get here away from all that comfort into a cool condescension into an ignorance care too hard fear of offense stronger than truth so we moved away put up walls it was slow so slow i missed it i missed you walking away missed you do you care anymore or have you moved on to someone funnier better someone new im just the unwanted shreds of a past you wish to forget i want to listen i want to be here for you but thats a matter all in your hands

I hang from the gallows of my own creation of my own fears own failures Don't you see the harder i try the harder i fall and the more apparent it becomes every time i try i fall further than before and you slip through the cracks of your own free will my fingers reach for you in a futile attempt but you fall away smiling leaving deep wounds my hands, wrists, heart bleed Crimson feeling falls in inconsequential drops silently crashing to the floor my petty limbs ripped from socket with the gentlest of force to multiply the pain My heart locked away grieves moments screams silent prayers and waits for you to speak the

I sit on my island sipping tea cool ocean waters tingle faint tropical breeses whisper my white dress flutters Im in escape mode it’s easy easier better better than facing the truth my truth the secret always lurking behind the shadows of my paradice it waits waits till i can’t stand it anymore pounces like a bird of prey tearing away all i hold dear tearing away all of me till theres nothing left till im alone till my dress is muddy brown till the wind is cold till the sea is sharp until i realise there is no escape till i stand up dust myself off and accept that he is never coming back

peppy I'm strong outgoing, bouncing up and down I don't need you to call i don't care what you say about me split shy I'm scared quiet, crying wanting to disappear I need you to call It kills, what you say about me am i jekyll am I a hyde what do you want to know me by It's easier for you when I'm strong when I'm fake because when I'm real it's raw 'cause its true you have to deal with it and if you cant you wont be the first so when fake wins and I loose I know it's time to choose

Im alone my eyes closed to the world bones broken I cant get up gashes streak across where my heart once lived Then you appear next to me listen to me bones mend talk to me scratches fade Stay with me as we pick up the broken pieces of my heart Help me as we glue it back together thank you for teaching me to look forward and never back to treat every moment as an adventure to live, laugh, and love again and for teaching me its okay to cry thank you for reminding me of all I can do all i will do all i want to do thank you

what if what if life was dance where light happy scenes enlighten us just as much as the gloom cures us of our ills where stumbles are meaningful falls necessary going no where just as important as going somewhere spinning in circles is not failure but instead success when it came time to freestyle it we would not doubt ourselves not stop to reassess not question in our judgement we would flow confident and daring taking it for what it is giving it everything and when its all over and the roses have been flung will we be able to admire our dreams as much as the dance? if we can it was worth it

Where did you go somewhere between the lol's i lost you between the meaningless words and the slow replies i lost you Should i have known is it my fault for some reason i don't think so Were you trying to tell me something or just brushing me off don't tell me your message was just lost in the translation i told you about me your not speaking russian return the favor Im not talking for my health i don't wanna talk to myself your message never made it your coldness did carry my books no reply talk with me type lol 15 TIMES These messages what do they mean conflicting answers one me You're just lost in the trans

Audrey dances with shadows stretched across the porch lit floor, with bruises under her eyes and chestnut tresses past her shoulder. She taps her fingers to keep herself from falling apart and to remember that one two one two should be the sound of her breathing, but yesterday she gave up. You see, two hundred fifty four miles past the horizon she left her freedom in the hands of a stranger who tied it in bows and planted it in the ground. ____ Every four days he'll call and tell her how only roots spread from the center, and how sometimes when it's raining he'll sit on the grass and swear it sounds like the beating of her heart. But she kn

little miss knowitall, thinks she is brighter than me. scolding my every mistake, and fixing them correctly. little miss knowitall, thinks she knows everything. but she truly doesnt fully see, through the small world she lives in. little miss knowitall, doesnt look at the bigger picture. stuck inside her shell of perfection, she misses out on the beauty around her. little miss knowitall, always has to be precise. she doesnt know how to fail, so she is always right. little miss knowitall, doesnt really know everything. if you dont ever make mistakes, then you havent learned anything. little miss knowitall, doesnt truly und

You haunt me like a rainy day. Kill me slowly with only a look. Make me cry over what you did. I didn't know it was possible to cry this much. You used to wipe my tears away. Now you only cause my tears. Only cause me pain. Bring back the memories. Even though you don't speak. Those eyes penetrate my heart. My shattered, breaking heart. Though if you did speak... I have a feeling I'd shatter as well. Now all I have are washed up photos. And writing that has faded. But I'm sure you never thing about this. Any of it. How your words piece me. Right through my skin, straight to my heart. Just keep telling me you have it all. A

You are fire My wonderful liar, Sweet little girl come take me higher And make me believe... I like being deceived. You are the spark that lights my heart's fuse causing me to explode like a keg of gun powder, but now the world is just a bruise. Blue and black like abuse, And as tears begin to flow this dream starts to corrode... it all starts to fade away. So difficult to keep pushing me lower to the deep, My today i piss away...just to be able to sleep.

tilt your chin up and let me kiss the paint stains away. my fingertips graze the length of your day and hold you in the cold of night. we're lost under the black lights and fog machines the strobes and thundering bass in the underground, beneath the wooden panels and betwixt the nobodies, we lean endlessly into each others bodies and learn entirely from our senses. i can trace butterflies in your stomach with my eyelashes and you can bloom endlessly in my heart. we're so perfect for each other.