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Wish

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i wish
once in awhile

sit in the middle of my half made bed
and watch as the cars
speed past
toward their unknown destination

i wish
to be strong

so that your words can stop
ripping my heart to shreds
so that every word
didn't cut the same wound
deeper
so the blood pouring from my soul
would not matter
so i didn't cry alone

i wish
to be beautiful in your eyes

so that i feel loved
that i can be looked at with proud eyes
not be discussed as ugly
so i could be happy
and proud
so you could stop
tearing me down

i wish
to be perfect

so the yelling
the words
the violence would stop

i wish
to be me

to be loved as who i am
not for who i cannot be
i want to feel beautiful
i want to feel smart
i want to know that i can make it
not that I'm a failure in your eyes
maybe then i wouldn't cry
every night in my sleep
and every day

most of all
i wish
i could tell you all of this
she loves me... but hurts me so much... i want to be perfect for her,,, im so weak

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i love this, i wish i could tell a certain someone all of this too.
beautiful writing. :heart: